When I was young, I used to think what will happen to all of us after these many years, how will the life turn out to be and various other questions. Life as people say is unpredictable but still people like predicting, may be that's fun. Sometimes you are right and sometimes you are wrong.
There used to be a question which every teacher, relative and family friends used to ask me... what will you like to be when you grow up ?
I used to have few different answers. Depending on the people and mood I am in, I used to give the answers. I think cricketer and astronomer were the two prominent choices. These two choices even have their backgrounds. The main thing was that I used to feel that we can be anything and that is the child like quality which I think we must possess.
I used to feel, if I will put my mind on some work then I will.definitely succeed. Further, my mother is a really inspiring woman who has been a fighter in her life. She used to tell me one thing always that if people can do it then you can do it. It can be done and you can do it.
After some years while I was still growing up, the people around me changed. I think the world is like that only. People became judgemental. Everything that you will say was measured with what you are doing. The end result is you become circumspect. You grow up and you stop sharing what is in your heart. You start talking as the world talks and do as the world do.
In that part of my growing up journey, I feel I was completely lost. I was hardly aware where I was going. In life change is inevitable. I was waiting for a change to come to my life.
There were many changes that came to my life. It swept me off my feet, blew me everywhere and I hardly had any idea where it was taking me. The only think was I that I was travelling and travelling really fast. I covered lots of places in this phase of my life. Lots of learning that happened in this place.
Still the peace eluded me. Till the day I finally found the answer for the question which I was asked in my childhood...what will you like to be when you grow up ?
I wanted to be happy. I wanted to be at peace. I decided that from this day onwards I will try to remove every negative thing from my life, everything that doesn't help me grow and everything that makes me sad. I decided from this day nobody will be in a position to put me down, to make me feel bad, to stop me from growing and who will not let me be happy and peaceful. I decided that I will follow it whosoever had it may be but I will never let myself reach the situations and places which I have left behind.
The good thing is I have seen life...the good, the bad and the times which people don't want even their enemies to see. I understand life and could tell where things will go. With this I come to full circle in my life where in childhood I used to wonder why people predict but it is hardly predicting. It is kind of a wisdom that tells you a probable outcome of the situations.
Now I feel I am ready for more journeys in my life.
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